Well I know it has been a while since I have posted anything new. And today is not much of an exception. The Neurosurgeon’s office did call me yesterday to let me know that they do not feel they should try operating yet. Don’t know if that means it is truly inoperable or if they don’t feel the risk is worth the amount that they can remove. Also, the first doctor’s office from Duke called me to let me know that they have the information back from my Biopsy and they will be discussing with the doctor on when to bring me in there. Not sure yet if it will be soon or if they will wait. I should hear back from them this afternoon about that.
Just a thought that I have been thinking on quite a bit lately. Why should I expect God to heal me above anyone else in the world? I don’t feel I have ever felt like I was better than another person by no means, but I have had several people say that it shouldn’t have happened to me. Well, why should it not? Yes I am a Christian and try to follow the Bible as best I can, but that doesn’t put me in the short line to recovery. In God’s eyes we are all equal. This means I am equal to the guy that abuses his body with drugs, or the prostitute who sells her body. He made us all equal, and loves each of us equally…period. The better treatment you get from being a Christian is not in this life….we actually should expect worse. The Devil hates a strong Christian and will try anything he can to screw them up. Nothing is better for his cause than a weak Christian. I should know, I have been there for a long time. I have never talked to people I know that are not Christians because I didn’t want them to not like me. In the past week I have felt compelled to speak with a few of those people…definitely not my normal self. I didn’t preach at them, I just did as I should have done in the past…listen to them and then tell my story. That can be all it takes. In this world no one wants to take the time to listen to each other, they are too busy with life to sit down and just talk. Everyone knows someone that they should just sit and talk with, to find out how they are and what is weighing them down. Once you start talking about those things then inviting them to church or even possibly praying with them is not so hard. (It is so funny that I of all people am giving lessons on “witnessing” something that I had not done in decades) So if there is anything to take from this it would be to sit down with a friend or co-worker that is unchurched and listen…you may not be able to take it any further the first time, so do it again and again until their heart is receptive, you will know, and then just pray with them or invite them to your church. The Lord will give you the words to say, but you have to take the first step.