One thing has been bothering Kara and I the last few days and we have discussed this several times. At the end of the day, or just as we were doing things together it felt like.....a normal day.....and we felt bad for that. We felt like nothing was wrong for hours at a time and we felt bad for doing that. I really don't like that feeling. I never want to go back to the average day I have had in the past mainly because I don't want to lose site of what has been made important to me in the last two weeks. Even if/when the tumor has been taken out or I have been given a good prognosis, I don't ever want to take one second of my life for granted. Life is too precious to do that. I am sure that there will be many more days that are not normal than there will be of "normal " ones but it is still unnerving. As I go through this journey, maybe this feeling will make more sense, but as of right now, I am not sure what to feel or think about it.
Gotta work tomorrow, I hope that I can concentrate more than I have the last couple of weeks on actual work. So many things run through my mind while I am there, and I still have people that are just now hearing of this journey I am on so they will come by and talk to me about it. Most people are scared to ask, thinking I don't want to talk about it. However, it is the exact opposite, I want to talk to others about it and ask them to pray for me. I still believe in the plan that God has for me in this and I do want others to witness what happens. I just want to jump up and down and point at God and yell "Watch this!" to everyone. I want to talk to everyone I can and tell them this story...not so I can say hey look at me, but to show them how many things God has done already...He is so awesome!
Time to go to bed...but I do want to say thank you for reading this. I have talked to so many of you that have read my ramblings and you have told me you are praying for me. It is so humbling to know so many people are praying for Greg Elmore...me. I hope that through my story, God will work to change all of us to get rid of the non-essential and let us as Christians work on the essential parts of our lives, to glorify Him.