Sunday, March 18, 2012

Day 23...

Really enjoyed church this morning and it was kind of funny listening to the sermon.  The sermon was basically talking about my life up until recently.  Our pastor stated that if you are doing good and are content with life then listen up and he will tell you how to fix that.  Well I have spent most of my life trying to find the next "fix" to make my life better.  A better job...a different job...a different state....a better car...more money...and the list goes on.  As I listened today I chuckled to myself on one occasion because the things he listed are things that I already had tried over and over.  But I can say honestly right now I am the most content with my life than I have ever been.  It took a brain tumor for me to realize what is important and lasting.  I am honestly happy now.  Yes that sounds completely backwards but I am.  The Lord has taken all the crap that filled my life and showed me how meaningless it really was and all I have left is what I need.  Along with removing all the useless things, he has cleared my mind as well.  There are so many songs, verses, etc. that I have heard many times that now say something totally different to me...kind of like someone put glasses on me the first time after being without them for years.  It just makes it clear.  I didn't start this blog to say "look at how great I am" because I am not.  I started this because in the very beginning of this journey I knew that God has a story that He wants to tell through me.  He didn't tell me through a burning bush or an angel from the sky, I just knew the night I first found out I had the tumor.  I pray that I never hinder this story and that I will only point out that God is in charge, whether we like it or not.  We can either listen to Him and follow him and be content in life, or fight it all the way and be misreable...either way it is our choice.  I got lucky on Feb 24, 2012 by being given a point in life where I can either follow or fight...I chose to follow.  Don't wait for that point in your life.  Make the choice now.  You will have a much more enjoyable life when you quit fighting between your will and God's...God's is much better especially because he knows us better than we know ourselves. 

1 comment:

  1. This moved me to tears, Greg. Guess I really needed to read this spoke volumes. It also reminds me of how I feel when I am surrounded by nature rather than being surrounded by human creations (like being in a busy city). Life seems perfect and peaceful, and why wouldn't it? It came from God. Not us. It's a good thing I have a child and Mark...if I was by myself, I would probably taking that to heart and leaving everything behind to be that crazy mountain lady living off the land, seeking nothing but nature. lol